its back to school again. school's getting monotonous by the day, but i seem to have become numbed to things. although michelle & i seem to differ alot in character, i totally saw myself in her when she used the word 'numb'. i guess deep down in our hearts, its not a question of whether we can accept things the way they are, but if we want to. i never realised it until after michelle said it, and i can absolutely imagine myself in her shoes, blocking out the things we disallow our minds to accept. afterall, we both have an uncanny ability to remain indifferent to matters, so that we appear cold. even I scare myself sometimes. i may be easily influenced, i don't know, but i just find so many things repulsive, even trivial stuff. i think the people are weird, and the things they do is even weirder still.

i feel as though my brain cells are dying off one by one. although doing hair tearing A-math questions in sec3/4 made me almost kill myself, i would gladly do them again if i had to, but not that i can remember how to anyway. i just miss the feeling of constantly having stuff to do. well, at least today's homework was more than the usual which equates to practically nil. when they said it takes a while to get used to, i didn't know it would take this long.

omg~my hand's are freezing, i can't type properly. apple was so crappy today. cos i asked her if the new students are from the april start intake. and she said yeah, maybe this batch will have eye candy(s), we should try to look out for them. and i told her that previously, waking up would be such a chore right, but should she find any eye candy, i bet she'd jump out of bed every morn and race to school. lol. i actually told her if she couldn't find any, nvm, after june hols there will still be the bridging course students coming in. haha. now at least there's some variety.

seriously elacs shld be renamed relacs. we're learning aust's history now. how interesting. i never liked history like i never liked math, bcos i could never link to it. yest we were watching this DVD, but i got nothing out of it at all. oopsy. it was seriously a bore. plus the ppl on my left were so sloppy n sleepy that they sort of passed the bug on to me too. and i just couldn't pay attention bcos upon seeing those guys to my left slping, my mind automatically drifted back to the time when i was sitting in 4E4 classroom and it's history lesson. mr tan (who always tries to act cute but to no avail) would sashay into class with his waterbottle with patterns(told u he try to act cute). the moment he said we're gonna watch a video, some of us would groan and some of us would be more than glad cos its sleeping time. haha. den JSH would whip out our inflatable pillows. at the end of the video, i wld turn around to see about half the class sleeping. (isn't it obvious which half?) haha. and i rmb seeing shioks nodding off on several occasions cos she always study till very late i guess. than i looked at the tv and tried to tune in to what the person was saying. but as i wrote my name in caps on the handout, i started thinking of my mom. bcos some of my letters looked like hers, maybe its just my imagination. whenever i had to sign a form in the past, she just signed and told me to fill the rest up myself. but i wld always insist on her filling it up for me cos i just love her writing. i actually rmb what she wld say exactly, "you write la, why must i write, ur writing nicer what!" me: " dowan~ur writing nicer!" then we both wld be arguing abt who should write, but she usually gives in. haha. and i actually had tears in my eyes just thinking bout it. fortunately everyone was either slping or watching the screen. i just can't stand being away from my family =( i really should think of a way to jettison myself out of this situation.

have been staying up late the previous few nights watching vcds with mich & fel. i'm currently addicted to "It Started With A Kiss" I don't know how long ago was that, i may be seriously lagging. but the show (and the male lead) has got ability to melt my heart!!! omg. can't wait for apple to pass me the rest of the show. she has tons of series~ i can see the rest of my upcoming tests branded 'F'. hahah. last night we couldn't watch episodes 18 & 19 cos the cd was blank. we ended up sharing stories instead (and at that time i just opened my accounting book but barely started on anything) we started talking bout weird/spooky/creepy stories. mich ended up slping in our room. hahah. haven't been able to catch up on my slp, so lethargic! i'm gonna be so busted in class tmr.