my baby bro no more
Sunday, October 26, 2008
just talked to my mom on msn and she showed me a vid of my bro & his friends break dancing in school. just thought i'd blog about it since i just had dinner and its not a good idea to go shower so soon. wow wow wow. just seeing my bro breaking and doing a head spin, i'm not sure what to make of it. yea i'm kinda at a loss for words. 我弟弟真得长大了. he's my baby bro no more!!! but i actually felt this way already, a few weeks back when i called home and he just had his voice break! i thought there was someone else at our house and i was like whos that? was laughing at him. lol. he didnt seem very interested in his piano anymore, didnt wanna play for me =( he's more into breaking of course. feels like i havent seen him in ages. but i'm sure he doesnt look much different from when i last saw him but definitely taller now, possibly taller than me. i'm just glad he didnt end up with bad company. he even hangs out quite often with this korean friend and as all koreans do, they have this separate fridge for kimchee!!! i was saying to my mom, "hmm...do u think we can get free home-made kimchee from them?" lol. i just feel very 可惜 that i'm missing out on a large part of his life. he doesnt come on msn as often anymore as well. i dont want us siblings to seem like total strangers after my many years from being away from home. especially since i only fly home once a yr. and now, i dont even know if i'll get to go home for good after i grad...i mean, there's a possibility i might stay on as well...sigh. life's so full of dilemas and difficult choices. i've been sighing alot lately, and being very nostalgic as well. but as much as i would like to brood, i really need to focus on exams for the moment. i have like 2 wks left! i'm so dead.
| Sunday, October 26, 2008 |
just one of those days
Saturday, October 25, 2008
they just had VD @ st ann's college today. its this thingy where they send up the peeps who are leaving college this yr & they get to dress up. den & his college friends were saying they wanted to go to pancake kitchen after but changed their mind and settled for o connor instead. and i'm stuck at home on a saturday night.renwei says:
heys
nv go out tonight?
sherilyn . says:
nope why?
is it a special occasion?
renwei says:
lol no
its a sat!
another other day i would have been feeling happy and comfy in my PJs, alone at home. but suddenly, i feel so lost. sometimes i feel as though my situation could have been alot more different if maybe i were living in college instead. i could have known alot more people, there would be tons of activities and perhaps my life would be more happening, i'd be somewhere else having fun now and not stuck at home wallowing in self-pity. i dont know why but its just hard for me to make friends with ppl @ uni. and i dont mean hi-bye kinda friends. what i really need is friends who dont only talk me to when they have a question regarding school work, or who skip classes & ring me up only to borrow notes. its just that everyone's known each other since high school and are on really good terms with each other, have their own cliques & stuff. i just dont know how i can wedge myself in w/o feeling too deliberate. i know i needa put myself out there, but i just cant seem to find anyone thats my frequency. sometimes i begin to wonder if its worth it coming all the way here, and missing out on so much stuff back home. even though i met den...but i really dont wish for him to be my only real friend. sigh. i dont know.
i'm missing my friends back home. =(
and yesterday, mom was telling me about my bro, how his grades were slipping at the parent-teacher meeting, his teacher asked if his sister tutored him at home. he said he's closer to me but i'm not in s'pore. i got a little teary eyed & wanted to book an air ticket home right there and then to give him a big fat hug. i feel kinda bad, that i cant be there.
i'm currently going through the phase when there are too many what-ifs on your minds. i need some specific instructions and some directions please!!!
| Saturday, October 25, 2008 |
didn't even feel like holidays
Saturday, October 04, 2008
yesterday during lunch i mentioned to tanya that i wanted to get a slimline concentrator for my hairdryer. dane went shopping for a hairdryer after that cos the one he had was emitting the smell of burnt plastic which is just gross. feels like every usage would shorten your life by a quarter. then he got one for me as well! took my old one to bring to his college. its limited edition and helps the breast cancer foundation. oh and we saw bras for display in the city yesterday with this big banner saying bras off and something else. we were like, hey does that mean they donate to the breast cancer foundation if u take off your bra??? lol. anyways, i really love the packaging but i cant take pictures bcos my camera's gone =( its white and blue and has this really soft look, feels girly. haha. ooh it has a curler diffuser and 6 diff speed and heat settings as well. now i dont have to worry about frying my hair. =)
i was just joking how he seemed to love the breville brand sooooooo much. his hot water flask, blender, orange juicer, toaster, are all breville. but anyways their products are pretty cool so its easy to see why they're so lovable. heh.anyways, yesterday dane made sukiyaki (jap steamboat) for dinner. we initially had 4 people and after a few calls we manage to gather like 4 more people. after we sat down and started eating, someone commented "are u sure this is food for 4 people??" looking at the amount of food the 4 of us would be stuffed to the brim. lucky we had extra peeps come over. we then made a last minute decision to drop by kenny's 21st party at botanic bar. he had a theme and people were supposed to dress up as anime characters. of course we didnt want to, but we had a fun time deciding what we could go as, not that we would really dress up. we're so not fun loving. haha. the discussion concluded with the decision that tanya, celine, boey & i will go as characters in sex and the city. hahahaha i just couldnt stop laughing bcos tanya's just so samantha-ish. well the 3 of them turned up in their glamourous dresses and well i didnt. it looked as though they were missing one character. in the end celine said i was the pregnant charlotte -_-"' not many people dressed up anyways. i saw the 2 teletubbies. lol. errrm...and dipsy's antenna was attracting alot of attention and interest...lol
so we left at close to 2am and i was counting how many hours of sleep i would get and i was like...ok 8 hours that's good. then dane went...oh shit daylight saving ends today so we have to adjust our clocks. so it became 3am then. after setting bill down, it was just me, frank and dane in the car. before i got off i asked dane for my keys. i said "keys please" and apparently frank thought i meant kiss so he was like oooookay *looks out of window whistling* and dane looked kinda blank for a moment before finally realizing what i meant. LOL. i was just laughing my head off. feeling kinda crappy right now cos i couldnt manage to fall aslp last night until like 8am and 2 hours later it was time to rise and shine. imagine tossing and turning in bed for 5 hours. i seriously considered waking up to pack my room or something. i really hope i'm not getting insomnia. school's starting again. i cant believe i'm sitting for my exams in a month, i really need to stop time. i'm sooo not prepared. i'm gonna go out for a drive now. besides having to sit for academic exams i have to sit for my driving test too. hmm...i really wondered if i would have passed if i didnt lose my driver's licence the other time...